I've done it again, I've let my stress level get so high that I'm flying head first into a flare up! Darn my low boiling point and quick temper to bits!! Being that we are on the threshold of St. Patrick's Day, I'm gonna go ahead and blame it on my Irish heritage lol!
Joking aside, stress is one of the worst enemies of #spoonies - for me personally, it can throw me into a flare up quicker than an aerobic work out. For the last week or so, I have been building up to a major blow up and it came to a rolling, boiling head today. Now, as I sit here and type this, I'm hurting from stem to stern. . . ugh!
I tried to work out my frustrations by doing things around the house and in the yard today. The weather here is too beautiful for words so I cleaned up the yard somewhat and then decided to install the window blinds I bought last night. The latter of those two was not one of my more brilliant thoughts - they are up and they look nice but "Oh My Gosh!"
My daughter and her friend we listening to me struggle and timidly asked me if I was okay, to which I responded, "I didn't have this much trouble giving birth!!!" They laughed but me, I was ready to cry - see I'm not smart enough to use a drill so I was trying to tap and drive screws in a VERY confined area. I insist on putting the blinds within the window casing/framing so not only is it confined but the angles are darn near impossible!!
So, my neck, shoulders, hands and arms are really feeling the brunt of the flare because they have had the most exertion. Couple all of that with the stress and I'd have to say, "I guess I picked the wrong day to quit using Xanax!" lol! Sorry, couldn't miss an opportunity to kinda quote one of my favorite movies of all time - "Airplane"
I have to add that several of my friends have helped me lately with one particular agitation. They have given advice, support and empathy. These simply acts of kindness and camaraderie have kept this episode from being 10x worse - so, "Thanks friends, you know who you are!" :) You just gotta love people and social networking sometimes!
Until next time!